Yesterday's 25 minute run...a first for the two of us...resulted in today's decision to rest! I care enough about my body (specifically...my knees) and the fun I'm having running to know enough when to take a break. All the reading I've been doing about running supports my decision to rest at least once a week...if not twice. Think I'll use the time I'd be running reading some fun stuff about running!
This thinking about resting in between runs has me wondering more about guilt. I don't feel guilty having made this decision to rest today so why does guilt come into my life after, during or before the time I write and work on my doctoral studies? I know this guilt is 110% mental...in my mind...not the world...yet I cannot get over it. I can write for 3-5 hours in a day then try to sit down and relax and struggle with it...feel bad for trying to do something fun or just sit and relax. Knowing that this guilt is self-driven is a first step...figuring out how to get over it and enjoy my life is a process...one day at a time. Writing about that process "here" is a part of the process. Getting this thinking out in front of me does help me reflect on it...helps me figure out how to give myself permission to rest...relax...enjoy life.
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Love it Tony! Great point that you make about how we cause ourselves to feel guilty about giving ourselves a rest. I'm the same way....and I think you've inspired me to go walk the dog. Enjoy your break, no doubt you deserve it!
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